I was up by dawn and spent the day targeted by seemingly everyone I came in contact with. So the word that comes to mind today, I'm sorry to say, is harried. I'm sorry to say it, because a harried self is not a best self. My kids can attest.
Harried
Harried means troubled persistently, especially by petty annoyances. It means preoccupied, rushed, panicked, overly busy, annoyed, flustered, distressed, bothered. And I was all of those things today as I tried to satisfy the demands flying at me like arrows on a battlefield. The verb "harry" actually comes from an Indo European root (koro-) that means war. To harry means to disturb or distress by or as if by repeated attacks. To raid, as in war; sack or pillage. To make a pillaging or destructive raid on a place (or a person?).
What makes you feel harried? For me, it's trying to do too much at one time and having everyone and everything demanding that I do it NOW. Today was a confluence of work and child demands of epic proportions. It was the kind of day when "MOM" becomes a bad word, and you wish you could go back to 1993 before anyone could email you or call you on a cell phone.
What makes you feel better? For me, it's usually the calm after the storm, when the raging winds subside and I take a breath and look around at the carnage. When, at least for a moment, everyone's demands have been met. After dealing with the last work emergency of the day and resurfacing downstairs, my little boy greeted me with "Daddy say 'leave momma alone!'" And then a hug from that little boy, accompanied by a firm pat on the back and the dear words: "You a good boy, mommy. Good boy."
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Sorry you had such a rough day. I hope today is much better. :) what precious sentiments from baby M. :)
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